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PATRINA. 20thseptember - We were meant to live for so much more. |
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♥ Monday, September 15, 2008
 i got lost on the waywhile searching for my identity sing a sad song and turn it around ; i had a bad day, a bad baddddd day. first, i was demoralised by my very depressing results and it really hit me right on my head. is this really really what i deserved? i know, bearing grudges or reproaching myself wont help any bit. reality is cruel. nothing will ever change this fact. thanks to those to consoled me in one way or another. calls, seeing messages and tags from y'all really touches the bottom of my heart. i love every single one of you. and i gotta stress- i did not forget to take my phone to work intentionally. sorry to aloy especially, who've been trying to contact me since morning. its comforting to see chuii cheering me up during work. he tolerated all my nonsensical grumbles and listened patiently while knocking some sense into this thick skull of mine. 'you think too much la. i feel like killing you with the chopper now. where got bad? come on la. its just not as good as you thought you will get.' left at 3plus for training. mistook 54 as 56, in the end i went all the way to amk to take 74. ZW taught me a way to vent my unhappiness and anger, smacking the balls as hard as i can into the net. so yeah i did and immediately crashed after that. poor pingpong balls. i'll be okay. i'm certain. bye for now. * i know your disappointment cannot be compared to mine. and that you're utterly upset. take some time to get over it yeah. dwelling wont help much. i'm here, as always. _ nothing beats seeing your smile |