Patrina.

PATRINA.
20thseptember

- We were meant to live for so much more.

♥ Sunday, September 23, 2007

` split ends rebounded ;

VIRGO: you shall have to deal with a confession so sincere.

often people might just cast that typical horoscope chart at the back of their mind once they finished reading it.
but there are times when it's so awfully true that one couldnt predict it'd striked,just the way as stated in it.

so you said:

'it isnt about a whole,pat.you know where i'm getting to.

its been years since back then,but you know,

it never left me.my feelings never cheated and fade.

i'd never doubted myself.AND YOU.'

of course,how could i possibly forget everything you'd done for me.

from trying to get close by msging and calling,

to sending me to work and home after i knock off,

to always remembering all my favourite stuffs and getting it for me,

to heading straight to ntuc just to buy me a drink when i casted a causal remark of 'very thirsty.'

to never neglected me amongst your tight schedules,

to staying by my side when im not feeling well,

to buy me food oftenly becuase you were afraid i would get gastric pains,

to saving all my messages,

to send me messages all the time to check that im fine,

to literally gave up your leisure time and sacrificing it just to accompany me through the boring hours..

etc.

i remembered everything single thing you'd done.

just to make me happy.

i remembered everything little thing you worte,

just to think of me.

many actually came to say you were the sweetest ever

that you'll bring happiness

and yes indeed,i dont deny that.

definitely the sweetest amongst those who ever tried crossing my path.

but i just cant bring myself to it

why,it just doesnt feel right.

im sorry i had to let you face such difficult moments all by yourself

its just not that kinda feel.

i hope you understand.

and i yearned for you to.

your devotion after 2 long years did moved me.ALOT.
& i'm utterly grateful to you
i seriously am.

however.. im SOOOORRRRRYYY.

then you end:

'i understand pat.i dont belong to your heart.

undoubtedly hurtful but i know i've tried.

im not gonna give up,not just yet.

thanks for completing my life by letting me know you.

my feelings are just too fresh and raw.

i'm gonna be alright on my own.trust me.

you must too.

please dont cry for me.like what i did for you.

pat,just in case i lose it and never got a chance to say it again,

I LOVE YOU,i do.'

you shot me a backfire and hit me straight in the head.

hey there lovely boy,

move on and takecare.

its just you and me
and no other people
but i dont know why
i cant keep my eyes off you.
(thanks.i know you meant well by telling me this)