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PATRINA. 20thseptember - We were meant to live for so much more. |
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♥ Thursday, September 13, 2007
` malignity ; switched off the lights when i'm supposed to on it gave the vendor $5 instead of just $2 plug in the wrong cable to the copiers and computers locked a customer outside when i'm guarding the door didnt save all my documents no appetite to finish a small bowl of noodles walked home in a daze & i guess,im not going over to bigss's house for dinner tonight MOODLESS. i had a terrible day. doesnt seemed to do everything right. that matter affected me alot. & i was seriously in total bewilderment. i'd never felt this way. its like an emotional turmoil. & it feels sick from within. =/ why cant i just make up my mind? why did i put everyone in a spot? FIAT. i really want you to know that i hate myself now loathe my past abhor my actions and felt pangs of disgust about the happenings. there's a thousand and one things i wanna pour out, there's so many questions i wanna ask, would you allow me to? as i type down all these tears just fall uncontrollably & this always happens countless time ; but i darent say it out im so afraid this would snap snap into a state where its beyond repair so im holding on my way but i cant resist slipping away can you please just step away from the shadows just release the rope so tightly knotted on your throat just stop looking back into the haunting past and,let your love flow. like that way it is before. i dont want something drastic to happen i just want to to freeze and remain at the best moments its either a stay or an advance in level IM SORRY. i dont know what else can replace the meaning and earnestness of this word. but i meant it,sincerely. accept it,possible? 其实我非常爱你不想失去你 难道我没有权利说我不愿意 可知道我多渴望抓住你的心 我每天假装开心害怕你离去 可不可以任性 求求你不要去 藏在我心里 最后一句 其实很爱你 _ i went through alot, to finally realised that you'd captivated me and had always been there for me. i know.i really do. |