Patrina.

ever changing things.
getting so sick of it.
tried my best to confrom to those.
but hell, i just cant.
stuck in the box.
stuck in traps.
cant seemed to crawl my way out.
oh help me-
i really cant.
some things arent what i had wished for.
some are just so sudden.
under pressure, anything may hapen.
so what the heck,
why must these happen?

hey,am i to you?
no responses.nothing at all.
sometimes i do foolish things.
but guess what.
it all comes from the bottom of my heart.
believe it or not,
whether you want to care or not,
its up to you.
i surmise i'd done too much.
and if i've decided that that's the end of it,
so be it.
i'm giving up.

if there were two of me.
i'd made sure that i'm there.
to do what i'm supposed to do.
two important things.
you think i would have prefered either?
let me say,
you're wrong.totally.
it may be the circumstances that i'm fixed in.
and if you think that i didnt bother?
fine.have it your way.
ask yourself,
what had i done prevoiusly?
dont that prove something?
SIGH.

i've sacrificed.
too much.
its time for me to let go.
some things which i dont deserve to hold on tight.
and if it does,
its time for me to tighten the loose ends.

tried to indulge myself in sleeping.
wishing that i could wake up and forget everything that bothered me.
oh so much.
i'm on the verge of a downfall.
things had began to roll downhill..
should i catch them?
or should i painstakingly see them roll?
dammit.
people,please offer me some pills.
i'm getting so sick of eveything.
so so tired.
i had enough.
please.....
let me go.
those ropes.

it isnt simple enough?
go ahead.leave me alone.
i dont get why the men dont get it.