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PATRINA. 20thseptember - We were meant to live for so much more. |
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♥ Monday, July 3, 2006
hey. i had been so busy since school reopened. there's always smth after school. band and supp classes and oral and f&n.... i cant breathe. but its ok. constant reminders of the word 'olevels' gives me strength. pushes me further. i'm not sure when i'll break down someday but i wont somehow,hopefully. band had been the same but not as it since the last practice. i dont know..perhaps the news had been let out of the basket. and when ms zaihana announced the new committee, no one seemed trilled or whatever. i guess post doesnt matter to them anymore yea? SIGH- maybe i think too much. PLEASE,please dont put the blame fully on it. the matter isnt at fault. i see it..but you dont. maybe you aint us that's why. politics had been really bad. being pessimistic isnt the way its supposed to work. but i cant make the decision,its still up to the teachers. why'd my blogs sonnd so band-ed? HAHA x) anyway here's another band thing. went to national stadium to see the top 3 marching bands compete with each other for the top band award. and guess what? tanjong katong won. but the best drum major goes to deyi's. nice work. must be tedious to practice everyday. ( i heard frm mr sim) o level mother tongue oral had been a challenge to me. i was feeling super nervous when its my turn soon. cant stop taking deep breaths. haha but in the end.i think i did FAIRLY well. i surmise the dist is gone. maybe just hope for merit. at least its good. haha =) i'm having problems doing my coursework now. big big prob. and i've to pass it up like..tmr morn. oh no i'm in deep trouble. i'm sorry to have troubled you these past months. i guess i just need some attention becos i feel so lost.. in band and in studies. i'm feel i'm lacking behind. maybe the tone i used wasnt right. i'm sorry. i wont next time. i will definately not burden you anymore. takecare without me, partner. i'm glad you've told me how you felt. thanks all the while for tolerating me. and thank you for sharing times of tears and joy with me. i'm grateful. :) |