PATRINA.
20thseptember

 - We were meant to live for so much more.







♥ Saturday, October 8, 2005

im so bored now la..i know i should be studying..but..haha =) later ba.OH!harry potter and the goblet of fire's coming out on the 17th of november!whee~haha =D yay!!cant wait to see the charming daniel radcliffe.HAHA.anyway,despite all these upcoming things.....i'm kinda stuck in a dilemma now.sheesh -__- between OBS and NCO.damn it man!both of it are falling on the same day.freaking 7th to the 11th of nov.argh~I WANT OBS!!!!!!!!!I WANT!!!!!!!but i have no choice..i HAVE to go for NCO.its not that i dont want to go for NCO.its becos i want OBS so much.and its once in a lifetime.and school's subsidising.next time if i wanna go,i have to pay like...$400+?!sigh...since i've already submit my name over for NCO then ihave to go.i must feel proud that cher had chosen me..yea? =/ i think NCO's gonna be real tough..cos i'm going for the drum major course..which means that i have to handle the maze..the long and heavy stick thingy.haha well,mrs lee decided on that.so what more can i say?anyway..after exams.i'm gonna start working on our band.miscommunication..what's that EXACTLY??i cant figure out though.i mean..yeah we contact each other thru phones and such.but..i guess these isnt enough.kinda angry with myself.why must i do good in band?in the end i have to take up such big responsibility..which i think i cant do it!!i hate having too much positions.i think being an ordinary secretary is ENOUGH.i just want that.i hope i'll stay with it.let the others have the job.i think they can do better than me.seriously..its not i dont want.its i think i cant do a good job..and i'll pull the band down.i dont want the band to fall too..sigh..
for band seniors if you're reading this..i just have to say..I'M REALY SORRY for disappointing you guys..but the teachers' really asking too much from us.i cant control the band..really..i think i cant do it man.=( im sorry.oh anyway,i havent gave up yet.dont worry.i'm just thinking of giving up.yeah.haha =)

i miss you seniors.i need help.